My..? [ she blinks, looks to her keychain and stares at it for a moment. ]
..Yes. It was.. a sword, I had with me. It was the same kind of sword spirit, like Buzen, Kashuu and Yasusada.. I could feel, everything from it. And it could feel everything I did. It felt as if.. we had always had been together, like I knew how to use it. At some point our.. feelings got so interwined, I couldn't tell apart my own from it.
[ it's a bit puzzling, her emotions, but there is a strong sense of familiarity with it. ] ..We were on a mission. To ensure... the army we were with, would fail. [ ... ] The cost of.. losing a few of our deeply cared ones, to save the mass... millions of lives.
[ that murky despair can be felt from her. ] If.. we didn't, it would doom that star to death.
..I know. But I saw... watched Clarte die. Bass, Hermes was there too--
[ how could she forsake those she loved? even so.. she grips onto the keychain a bit firmer in her bandaged hands. ]
I... tried, but. Only two of us had.. this mission in mind. One did not. I... I died. I tried.. but I couldn't bring, myself to stop... [ to stop him. ] We failed that star.
[ that festering despair, it isn't overwhelmingly so but it. exists. sometimes, you happen to bad end your cyoa. ]
[his own emotions are troubled, there, but there's an undercurrent of-- something sort of resigned. something unsurprised. of course one of them hadn't been able to keep this mission in mind. of course one of them would have jeopardized it, led to meteion's death within it.]
You could hardly have expected to deal with that, on top of everything-- 'tis nigh unthinkable.
It- It wasn't his fault! It was.. his sword. His sword had been.. corrupted, a sorta.. plague, that twists and corrupts their bearer. He.. he had no choice, he did everything he could to protect us before then. It just.. became too much, at the end.
[ there's a feeling of sorrow, anguish, to have watched someone get corrupted and been unable to do anything about it. ]
It ought to have been the other's duty, then, to put a stop to exactly that. To end the problem before it could reach a point where the two of you were placed at such risk.
[now the boys are both losing approval, love that for them.]
B-But, he is reliable.. they both are. [ despite what happened, there isn't a single emotion that suggests she blames either of the two she was with for what happened. just guilty for it ending up that way. ] We just... we weren't prepared for the corruption..
[ looking back the good end was so obvious and im crying for her bad end. ]
..I would. That corruption is.. no different than, what is forcing people here to kill someone else... I can't blame him, or them for that.
[ though, the mention of Bass makes her heart sink, an ache in her chest. that guilt a bit stronger. ]
...I.. I told him I'd be careful. [ that she'd run away and she couldn't even do that. it wasn't a promise persay but, that anxiety settles. ] ..Please.. don't tell him what happened.
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[meteion your bare bird feet.]
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Oh.. alright. I'll leave it, to others, then. [ she fiddles with the keychain a bit more. ]
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[...hm. he watches her fiddle with it, before:]
-something from your excursion?
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..Yes. It was.. a sword, I had with me. It was the same kind of sword spirit, like Buzen, Kashuu and Yasusada.. I could feel, everything from it. And it could feel everything I did. It felt as if.. we had always had been together, like I knew how to use it. At some point our.. feelings got so interwined, I couldn't tell apart my own from it.
[ it's a bit puzzling, her emotions, but there is a strong sense of familiarity with it. ] ..We were on a mission. To ensure... the army we were with, would fail. [ ... ] The cost of.. losing a few of our deeply cared ones, to save the mass... millions of lives.
[ that murky despair can be felt from her. ] If.. we didn't, it would doom that star to death.
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[of course it is. the needs of the many, over the few-- an entire star could not be risked over the lives of a few loved ones, real or otherwise.]
Unpleasant a task as I am certain it would be-- such things must be done.
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[ how could she forsake those she loved? even so.. she grips onto the keychain a bit firmer in her bandaged hands. ]
I... tried, but. Only two of us had.. this mission in mind. One did not. I... I died. I tried.. but I couldn't bring, myself to stop... [ to stop him. ] We failed that star.
[ that festering despair, it isn't overwhelmingly so but it. exists. sometimes, you happen to bad end your cyoa. ]
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[his own emotions are troubled, there, but there's an undercurrent of-- something sort of resigned. something unsurprised. of course one of them hadn't been able to keep this mission in mind. of course one of them would have jeopardized it, led to meteion's death within it.]
You could hardly have expected to deal with that, on top of everything-- 'tis nigh unthinkable.
Which of them was it?
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It- It wasn't his fault! It was.. his sword. His sword had been.. corrupted, a sorta.. plague, that twists and corrupts their bearer. He.. he had no choice, he did everything he could to protect us before then. It just.. became too much, at the end.
[ there's a feeling of sorrow, anguish, to have watched someone get corrupted and been unable to do anything about it. ]
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[now the boys are both losing approval, love that for them.]
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[ it. it was a mess. So Much Happened. but yeah meteion sure did die.. twice. ]
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[the vibes are both irritated and exasperated. how useless was he??]
Then I suppose you know he ought not to be relied upon, in the future. See to it that you are cautious.
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B-But, he is reliable.. they both are. [ despite what happened, there isn't a single emotion that suggests she blames either of the two she was with for what happened. just guilty for it ending up that way. ] We just... we weren't prepared for the corruption..
[ looking back the good end was so obvious and im crying for her bad end. ]
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[more annoyance in his emotions, there.]
...Bass wished for me to tell you to be safe. You could stand to choose your company carefully.
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[ though, the mention of Bass makes her heart sink, an ache in her chest. that guilt a bit stronger. ]
...I.. I told him I'd be careful. [ that she'd run away and she couldn't even do that. it wasn't a promise persay but, that anxiety settles. ] ..Please.. don't tell him what happened.