[ she quietly follows after, wings drooping. honestly, she cannot say she truly expected a yes or no answer but... after everything that's happening. death is just a thing that hangs over their heads now. ]
I see... [ she grows quiet again, standing there, a look of loss and not entirely full of understanding. what she does know is... ]
I.. I don't want Hermes, to be alone. If.. If I do have to be undone, please, Emet-Selch... can you at least, promise me, he won't be alone..?
[ that ache of loss, that suffering and pain.. it can eat someone alive. she's felt the negative impact of it, of losing cared one, more personally than before. feels that despair festering but she's.. always had that bit of hope. flamed alive by the people here. ]
[he's quieter than usual, himself. before this weekend, he hadn't really cared at all about any of the ones who killed or died. they simply occurred around him.
this is-- he doesn't know what to do with the emotions, and spends his time shoving them aside instead.]
He ought to make the right decision, eventually. To accept his nomination, to take his predecessor's seat and to join us. I have known others to turn down a seat, but surely he must see he is not suited for his current duty.
[and he would not be alone on the convocation, at the least.]
[ she grows quiet once more, looking down at her hands as they rub at another anxiously. she doesn't know what to do with that answer... Hermes did not seem, completely against the idea of the seat, but she doesn't know. is that really enough? ]
But... will they understand him..?
[ being surrounded by people, it is no different than Elpis. than the work he goes through, day by day. he's still, technically, alone in how he feels even if she tried to prove that he wasn't. she starts to speak before she pauses and. ]
Do.. you, understand him? What he feels, after... everything we've seen here..?
[ what it means to know of some pain, suffering, a loss that hurts in a way you never truly expect. ]
[ah. he's quiet only for a few moments, but-- of course he knows this answer.]
My duty. My people. Etheirys as a whole, the very star we love and nurture.
[love, in general, though of course he would never say so; his tone is softer, though, thinking of it. of amaurot. of those he left behind in being pulled here.]
[ ... ah. that answer. if there was any tension in her form, it's almost gone at that. a breath escapes her.. and she offers a smile.
an answer like that-- ]
... When I asked others, Riff was the one to ask me, what my answer was. I thought.. it was to find Hermes' answer. That my purpose for living was just to find answers. But.. talking with Bass, with everyone else, learning of their answers and feelings--
[ she rests a hand over her chest, peering back at him.]
I... I want to live for everyone. For the ones I care for, and love, being able to protect.. and give hope in return, would give my life, meaning. [ It's only been.. three weeks and she has already seen, witnessed, felt so much on her own. But it really has been all of her interactions here that have helped with her growth. In a way that Hermes surely hoped for her. ]
My.. sisters, may feel hurt, and hate but, I... [ her voice trembles, tears prickling in her eyes. to remember that pain... that suffering. it was so much. so much but-- so very, very wrong. ]
...They, showed me hope, here. Each one of them. [ she can't help but think of Bass, who has tried again and again for her even when she felt like she had lost hope entirely, for Clarte who is too much like her and still able to move forward, of Buzen surely still asking her to keep her head high. ]
..I want the same, as you. [ to protect their star, even if her sisters may wish for its end. for a fate more cruel. ]
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I see... [ she grows quiet again, standing there, a look of loss and not entirely full of understanding. what she does know is... ]
I.. I don't want Hermes, to be alone. If.. If I do have to be undone, please, Emet-Selch... can you at least, promise me, he won't be alone..?
[ that ache of loss, that suffering and pain.. it can eat someone alive. she's felt the negative impact of it, of losing cared one, more personally than before. feels that despair festering but she's.. always had that bit of hope. flamed alive by the people here. ]
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this is-- he doesn't know what to do with the emotions, and spends his time shoving them aside instead.]
He ought to make the right decision, eventually. To accept his nomination, to take his predecessor's seat and to join us. I have known others to turn down a seat, but surely he must see he is not suited for his current duty.
[and he would not be alone on the convocation, at the least.]
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But... will they understand him..?
[ being surrounded by people, it is no different than Elpis. than the work he goes through, day by day. he's still, technically, alone in how he feels even if she tried to prove that he wasn't. she starts to speak before she pauses and. ]
Do.. you, understand him? What he feels, after... everything we've seen here..?
[ what it means to know of some pain, suffering, a loss that hurts in a way you never truly expect. ]
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[she isn't someone who he would tell, about the rest. whether he feels anything in this circumstance.
but that particular wording may say something for him.]
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she's quiet for a moment longer before-- ]
...Emet-Selch. What is your answer? What gives your life.. meaning? What do you live for?
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My duty. My people. Etheirys as a whole, the very star we love and nurture.
[love, in general, though of course he would never say so; his tone is softer, though, thinking of it. of amaurot. of those he left behind in being pulled here.]
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an answer like that-- ]
... When I asked others, Riff was the one to ask me, what my answer was. I thought.. it was to find Hermes' answer. That my purpose for living was just to find answers. But.. talking with Bass, with everyone else, learning of their answers and feelings--
[ she rests a hand over her chest, peering back at him.]
I... I want to live for everyone. For the ones I care for, and love, being able to protect.. and give hope in return, would give my life, meaning. [ It's only been.. three weeks and she has already seen, witnessed, felt so much on her own. But it really has been all of her interactions here that have helped with her growth. In a way that Hermes surely hoped for her. ]
My.. sisters, may feel hurt, and hate but, I... [ her voice trembles, tears prickling in her eyes. to remember that pain... that suffering. it was so much. so much but-- so very, very wrong. ]
...They, showed me hope, here. Each one of them. [ she can't help but think of Bass, who has tried again and again for her even when she felt like she had lost hope entirely, for Clarte who is too much like her and still able to move forward, of Buzen surely still asking her to keep her head high. ]
..I want the same, as you. [ to protect their star, even if her sisters may wish for its end. for a fate more cruel. ]